Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Letter in a Bottle
I know this is crazy, but i must admit at this point i am far past crazy. This blog will be a letter to Ella. I hope for the chance of a dream. You never know who reads what and tells who about it. You never know. So here i go, pouring out my soul to the girl i love for everyone to see.
I still can't believe how we met. The accident of me meeting your cousins then the luck of meeting you. I kept wondering why i couldn't get enough of you and i wonder how i feel i always need you. For what attracts me to you isn't your looks though your more beautiful then each flower i want to give you. Your beautiful mind. The uniqueness that is your mind. The words you say, the thoughts you think. The pure beauty that is your mind. This is what attracts me to you.
Its been over a year now and are life together seems to get crazier with each passing month. Sometimes i wish we could just run off together, live together for as long as possible. Maybe somewhere warm near a beach. I want to spend the rest of my life with you as you do with me. I wish, i hope, i dream, i demand that fate let us be together. All i want from Life Ella is to love you, every minute of the day in every way possible. not just now, not just tomarrow, but the next day, and the day after that, and the day after that, and the day after that in an endless cycle to never end.
Its been about exactly a month this time. I know this isnt as long as the 3 months weve spent apart. But i have a feeling that this time around may last longer and be far worse. All i want from life is for you to be happy, to live a good life, to do good in school, to eat, to be safe. Even if you do this all without me its ok, just as long as you are happy then im happy.
I miss listening to you talk about what books your reading
I miss the soft touch of your lips on mine
I miss how you care so much about everything
I miss the way you speak so intelligently
I miss how you love me even though im not perfect, im so far from perfect.
I love you blue eyes, i love your glasses, i love your kisses, i love your words. I would sell my soul to spend a minute with you, because that one minute could get me thru an enternity of hell without trouble. You are an angel, pure perfection sent down to earth. I am more then lucky to have you in my life.
One day we will get married, will say i do, will kiss. One day will have kids, will kiss, theyll go eww. One day will grow old together, each day ill cherish just as much as the last one. All i want from life is to love you every possible second that exists in my life. I love you Ella, more then words can explain.
I love Ellany Maria Barwell, and i want the world to know. Ella i hope this makes its way to you somehow, one way or another.
*rolls up the letter carefully* *puts the letter in a bottle *tightly closes the bottle* *stares out at the sun over the ocean infront of him *closes his eyes*breaths* *throws the bottle as far as he can into the water* maybe, somehow, it'll find you Ella, this may only be a dream for a chance of hope. But its all i have and i won't give up.